Living is easy, one just keeps taking one breath after the next - remembering to breathe out inbetween of course. Life is much more complicated and living with oneself more complex yet........
4/1/09 Dear diary: Sleeping was elusive again last night though I did manage a couple of hours. Woke up tired of course, and crying, but nothing unusual in either of those. I wonder what today will bring as I tread the paths of the world. I still have the pains. Best not to worry about those, what's the worst that can happen after all. This so sounds like a whinge, shake yourself Kim! Mmmm didn't seem to do much. I smiled and said good morning to my family, even though they weren't there. Day 2,645 starts to dawn much like the other 2,644. I remind myself that i'm one of the most stupid people alive, sigh, and put the kettle on. Why did I do it all those days ago? Was I scared? Was I insane? Was I selfish. A bit of all 3 probably. Can I forgive myself for my sins actual and of omission? No - never. I have a small answer to one of life's more tricky problems. A soft boiled egg, and soldiers I think.....